Doc, Always In A Mood?

Right now, my attitude has been pretty shitty. I need to hire someone for my publishing business to come into the office and help out with orders. Slave J. pointed out my negativity by affirming me with words of appreciation. I’ve been negative a lot lately, and I don’t mean to direct it at any of you — it stems from feeling out of control. The intense heat in Palm Springs (120+ degrees) has been making my body feel whacky after training. And I love to train hard, but I’ve had to pull back to prevent complete exhaustion.

I’ve been kinda lonely here other than Saturday water polo and morning swims with others. I had to give my poodle Lucky to Rich Mott (BFF — yes, best friend forever, I have one of those). On top of that, I opened a few businesses that get too many calls for me to manage, and I’m just absolutely beat. BEAT. I didn’t think the new businesses were going to be successful, so I didn’t anticipate the amount of work.

So, basically, I don’t have my poodle, I’m working long hours, and training in 120-degree heat. I’m not getting enough sex (the way I like it — complete with my perversions because Southern California is full of flakes, even in the scene). I’m unhappy. I want to relocate back up to the Bay Area and have looked at a few places, although I’m in love with my land in the desert. I wish I could go between the two.

But more good news: I’ve decided to focus on my writing and filmmaking because those are the only things that genuinely make me happy. I’m doing my best to go on tour this fall with new books, which all of you will get as a gift.

I don’t even know why I’m telling you guys this, but I thought you should really know why I’m pissy a lot. No, it’s not natural for me to be pissy. I’m not usually scolding or mean. I have to make some choices in the upcoming days.

Doc